What the hell was I thinking?

I was contacted by this guy we will call Mr.DayTime on SA. He was married and wanted to hang out with someone during the day while he was "working". I met him up last week for a cheap lunch lol. I hate chain restaurants. Anywho, he wasnt bad looking. He was a little uptight and got straight to the point about the arrangement. He told me he had an arrangement with one other girl for awhile and she started dating someone. So they ended things. The arrangement was to meet up two to three times a week for an allowance of 1000 dollars a month. I thought this was a lot of time for little money. We finished lunch and he told me he was interested. So he wanted to see me on Monday. Monday comes around and I was too tired to meet up with him. Today he contacted me and asked if I would meet him today. I was like sure. He told me to meet him at a hotel room. I really had to think about if I wanted to do this. I mean, this isnt what a sugar relationship is. Atleast not in my mind. This was borderline prostitution/escort. So after a lot of thought, I decided to go. I was really scared. Was this a set up, was he going to kill me..etc. I got dressed and put a gun in my purse. I met him at the hotel. Soon as I saw him I wanted to throw up and run back into my car. The physical chemistry wasnt there at all. We went into the room and he started kissing me. He was a pretty good kisser so I thought, I could do this. Soon after that the clothes came off. He was taking the lead (which I usually do). I didnt want him to touch me. He was kissing my body and I cringed. He told me to turn on my stomach, so I did. He continued to kiss me. I was laying there thinking WHAT THE FUCK AM I DOING. So I finally turned back around and said, listen I cant do this. I am so sorry for wasting your time. It doesnt feel right and I would feel horrible about myself. This isnt what a sugar daddy is. Its not meeting up in a hotel room to fuck. I put my clothes back on and said I needed to go. He was really nice and understanding about it. He gave me 100.00 dollars and told me to go get my hair done. LOL my hair cost way more money then 100.00. I left the room and drove home. I jumped right into the shower to wash everything off. I just wanted to shove the bar of soap in my mouth lol. Lesson learned. Onto a better note. I have a date tonight with a doctor from SD. What name shall I give him? How about, Ddoc. Anyway, we emailed a lot back and forth. We have spoken on the phone. He is european and very generous. He has already offered to pay my gas and help me out with anything else I need. We are going to Ruth Chris Steak House. I have never been, but I know its very nice. Ddoc has some potential. I will update tonight. xoxo, Sweet Sugar. P.S( Can you P.S on a blog?)- I have been reading a lot of other blogs, including the one on SA to get a better idea on how to screen pots. Not make the same mistake as I did earlier this afternoon. This is all new to me so its going to be a learning experience for sure. Any comments would be great.